Life..........what is life to you? Is it a bed of rosess or a bed of thorns ..i feel that its something ever changing and we are always chasing to keep up with it like some sort of trend.
Its a strange thing as well as we work our asses off for the money to make things work..but how we usually end up working more deeply to support for the comfort we want ...not need.
Some are lucky to to have a strong body and mentality to go forward for it , but how many of us really do want to go on.
I didnt come from a family rich enough for me to not go through the hard road of working.I have been working all my life ...to make life better for myself and my family since high school days.
I can work without eating , sleeping and go on for 12 -16 hours averagely. My weight was around 45 kg (considered skinny for my height of 161cm). I ve been like that until i m working in my sleep ..to the extend like some sort of sleep walking ..and talking just like i m working.
I figure out i cant go on living a life like this anymore ..so i went to look for a job with more flexiblity.
I gathered up my courage and bought a car to go for this job. I have been in this line for more than 10 years now. Its difficult to leave your comfort zone.............I have to admit at first i was not great at all..earnings is cut down 30 -40% .Stress in new company and new skills to learn.
Now I have been in the sales line for more than 2 years now ..i have survived and doing well i would say. Still work as hard as same but in different criteria now .Doing extra for company and customers and taking their problem seriously and personally until i cant sleep at night.
Until recently one of my best mate got diagnosed as a heart patient ..he is only 30 years old.
Luckily god was kind enough not to accept him in his care yet, or i be losing a great friend n Partner in crime forever.
It really hit me hard...all this while my trying so hard to excell in anything i do , is it WORTH it??
I have fall out and lost touch with so many friends...until now it is uncountable any more..i cant remember what is joy and happiness to me anymore...i dont even have a hobby for god sake's what do i have , like and want in my LIFE??
Well although i m not a faithful supporter of any god ..but i m lucky to have my hubby and family to be there for me so far...
I m learning to take things easy ..as in life and work not all the things will go accordingly. Most of the situation happens is out of our control..why torture yourself for things you cant control.
Live life to the fullest as it is trully everchanging and short ..if we dont live it to the fullest, i think we may not have the chance to regret also.
For those of you who have second or third chance in life do live it to the fullest.
"LIve live as there is no tomorrow, Laugh as hard as you breath"
"Do as you wish as there is no room for regrets"
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